Thursday, September 30, 2004
ahhhh.
lOls!!
heyy.
just dropping by to say hi..
and erm. yeaa studyy hard.
=) and.. sorry to hear bout the phone. *nods.
nvm. he'll give it back.. lOls or else you can be like daryl. =)) go out and no one knows how to contact you. its kinda cool too. =)
bubyyyeeees!!. *hugss.
; ange
5:33 PM
bOo !
hellos.*waves like crazie.
hahas.
exams officially start tomorrow.so i thought i deserved a shortt break.
frm stardee-ing.
mms.
i do.don't i ?
i've been reallie reallie reallie hard working KAE.
its like my mumie is freaking out.hahaa.she thinks im an alien frm space who's taken over her daughter's body.cos suddenly rachel's so diligent.
i mean.like since when did rachel ever study beforehand.
except for chinese of course.but that's not the point here cos she's really truly and actually studying !
its like amazing.
totally unbelievable.
TWELVE more days
til the end of EOYs only !!
-hoorays. :))
hahas.
it hasnt even started and im already looking forward to the end of it all.
after which i have to start mugging for chinese Os.
*slaps face.[that's so outta point girl !]
but who cares..
wahahahahas.
okok.
buh byes !!
ohyarhs.
there's one more thingie.
--dadie took my phone away.
PERMANENTLY !!
- sobbs )):
yarh lorhs.so meanie.i already cut down alot alot alot on my phone bill but he still like that.grs.
ohwells.maybe its for the best.concentrate on my studies.*nods.
but im not convincing myself ?
hahs.
gotta runnnnnnnnnn.
sayonara !
- rachh gave you wings to flyy.
; rachh
3:29 PM
Sunday, September 26, 2004
hurts.
EverybodyHurts | The Corrs.
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you think you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go,
cause everybody cries and everybody hurts, sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong.
Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
if you`re sure you've had too much of this life, well hang on.
Cause everybody hurts.
Sometimes take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't blow your hand.
Oh, no. Don't blow your hand.
when you feel like you're alone,
no, no, no, you`re not alone
If you're on your own in this life,
and the days and nights are long,
if you're sure you've had too much of this life to hang on.
cause everybody hurts sometimes,
everybody cries. Sometimes everybody hurts, sometimes.
everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on.
Cause no you're not alone...
hmmm just..yeaa. =) this is like a kinda sweet song.. and yupps. trust that One up there. cos He felt that pain before and He knows exactly how it all feels like. =) He can handle it. tk care gurll. had a great time wit you and the rest todayy.
; ange
6:44 PM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
hahs.
okok.
so my whole life is screwing up.
but im not gonna screw up along with it rites ?
hahas.
whatever mann.
i think im just crapping.
aiyahs.
i dunno.i think im just too stressed out.
i don't seem to be able to find the discipline i need to study ? and exams are starting this friday.
i think im gonna be asked to drop all my subjects larhs.
hahaa.
this is so pathetic.
and depressing !
okok.
so its not gonna happen.
but yarh.
im freaking out..
; rachh
9:30 PM
messed up--
heyy.
life is just flowing again.
or issit ?
i dunno.
and i seriously don't care.
okok.
so i messed up.again.
and the best part ?
i think i messed up big time.
urghs.
sometimes i think my life is just one huge rollercoaster ride.
my life can honestly be a huge pane of glass.
tons and tonnes of broken spots.like all the relationships that've been broken and ruined over the years.
its actually all quite sad.
my fault definitely.you know my characteristic stubborness.refusal to admit im in the wrong.
well yeahh.you get the point already.
and guess what ?
i suddenly had this guilt pang sorta thingie--decided i should start over.
you noe.ask for forgiveness.that sorta thing.
wierd ritee ? don't ask me how it ever happened.
cos i dunno.
honestly.
it was like totally out of nowhere.
hahs.
so i've been like picking up the broken shards of glass that are lying about.
like all over the place.
guess i should have known that it wouldnt be easy.
*ironic laughter.
tell me about it mann.
i've just been licking my wounds these few days.
yeahh you guessed it.
i've cut myself like a million times picking up those glass pieces.
now i noe why my mumie says not to play with glass ?
oh yarh manns.
well.
screw my life larhs.
life goes on.
but you noe what.
im gonna have to face reality one of these days.
and the stark nakedness of tht truth hurts.
stings reallie reallie bad.
cos im facing it already.
without even looking for it anymore.
it still chasing after me.
guess im just gonna have to turn around and face it.
im strong.
but just not tht strong.
doesnt anyone understand tht.
cant anyone see tht im struggling here.
fighting with my inner demons.
and choking on all my personal steps.
no.
not even my closest friends understand.
they think its some kinda joke.
well.fine.
i'll laugh along with you guys.
but you noe what.
im dying inside.
hurting like nobody's business.
but i'll laugh.
laugh for your sakes.
what a wonderful time it is.
indeed.
i shall smile at the storms.
hahaa.
what an irony !
; rachh
2:30 PM
Thursday, September 23, 2004
here.
perhaps im the only one who realise you update as of now??. i dunno.but since the frequency of me logging in and all is so high.and that i have a share of this blog. i saw that.and well.. i guess its time for me to have this blogg just a lil more active on my side.
lots of stuff going in me.and well yeaa.a lot of inner struggles.but perhaps finally i have decided that its all gonna stop.and i need to refocus.and start from square one all over again. to actually trust Him.
have been playing the cards myself these few months i should guess.and have been losing quite bad. humans are weaklings and well.only made strong if He gives you the strength. i havent been asking for it.and i havent been wanting it from Him.thought that i can handle this my wayy. and yeaa the revelation is that. He's running your life and He's in charge.its His plan underwayy and uh uh.your plan aint the best. for one thing.all of us are still under construction.none of us are perfect. only He is.and thus..He would know exactly what is the best of us.
one important lesson learnt at bs.is that God is sovereign. any rebellion any war anything that happened.He knew it all along.and He planned it.to the very last detail. amazing how He knows exactly how stuff will happen.and how they will end up. and one chapter of the bible can actually record stuff that is gonna happen in at least 2500 years.. and beyond.what's more that 80++ years of your life??.trust Him!!
sound like i can trying to convince myself?? perhaps yeaa i am.but just hope all these would be of some encouragement to you too. *nods.
stuff seems bleak?? but dun worry. it will work out. let go.let God.
and gurll?? anything?? im still a call away. aiyahh screw exams. =) nahh its fine.tk care.and hang in there. *hugs. all the best.
; ange
5:31 PM
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
frustrated*
grs.
got a million and one feelings.
all pent up inside of me.
and the stupid thing is.
i noe i should let go.
but i just can't.
i reallie reallie can't.
stupid.
stupidd.
stoopidd.
arghs.
its so totally and wholly tooooopid.
everything.
absolutelyeverything.
is going utterlyfullycrazilyirritatingly.
wrongwrongwrong.
this is totally badddddddd.
urghs.
i hate myself !
; rachh
8:11 PM
Saturday, September 18, 2004
pouts.
heyy decided to pop by cos im bored.and yeaa i know this layout is so pretty and ive decided so long ago to do something bout this layout but..hmmm.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh im sorry no time and so much to do!!. ill try to see what i can do.but i need to find a nice nice layout??.=/ ill see what i can do..soon.3 weeks more and ill be having my hols so most prob by then aiights??. =)) buubyyee.
nuT.*
; ange
1:00 PM
Friday, September 17, 2004
update !!
hahaa.
here you go joycee.im updating KAE.hahas.so nice of me hor.
anywae.
on a much more sombre mood.
i lost my wallet !!
arghs.
*sobbs.
its so darn sadd.i dunno.im just so lost without it.
my mumie keeps nagging and nagging.with all the 'i-told-you-so's and such.and everytime she looks at me.i can see her pratically shaking her head.and breathing a sigh.
went to make a police report cos my NRIC, ezlink card and 3 library cards were inside.only to go there and find out its not necessary to file a report.
grs.
*glares at dadie.
yarh.
that marks the end my pathetic week.
this week was a lil more than crazie.it started off with my dadie taking my phone away.
okae larhs.so i deserved it.my phone bill literally went 'BOOM' !!
then tuesday there was bio test[which i so totally failed--40%].
and we had to simultaneously mug for chinese on thursday.like the whole sec4 express chinese syllabus can.pple study in half a year.we study within 3 days.pro larhs.
and simultaneously reminds me of maths ! which so totally sucked.it was practically the exact same paper.but this time i failed.mrs yeo was like 100% improvement.im like yeahh ritee mann.
bloops.
sucky sucky.
yuckk.
don't wanna think about it le.
only good thing was that i got back my phone on wednesday nitee.
bad thing ? forgot to bring it to school on thursday.
hahas.
okok.
gotta runn.
buh byes !
-rachh
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; rachh
10:43 PM
Monday, September 06, 2004
greetings frm shanghai !!
hahaa.
never thought i would be able to go online and blog.
but hahaa.
we're like chao ji the slacking in the com lab on the exchange prog school can ??
hees.
so funnnnnn !
blah blah blah.its like we've been whirlwinding thru every thing.
the past few days have been super hectic.abit never rush rush and rush somemore larhs.
hahaa.
plus hor.when i get back..
i'll be twice my size !!
with my 'fan club' giving me loadds of choc and my dad too.plus all the ten ++ course meals they're feeding us here.there's no way i won't gain weight.
yupps.
so beware.
don't get a shock..
; rachh
1:44 PM
